Today Case would have been 11 months old...and I find myself sitting here dreaming about what an awesome birthday party he's probably having in heaven right now....you know....with Jesus, and his Great-Great Grandparents, and so many other little SMA angels. I think that the choir of angels is probably singing all the really really good songs today, and since I like to let myself think we'll be able to eat all of our favorite foods and do all of our favorite things in heaven, I think he's probably having the best slice of chocolate birthday cake ever tasted and swinging and running and laughing and playing! My heart is so filled with joy that he gets to taste sweet sugary frosting and run and dance and play...things he never had the chance to do in his life here on earth. But at the same time there is an ache in my chest today because I miss him so very much & I wish I could hold him in my arms and kiss his soft little cheeks!
I'm looking forward to reading a book by Randy Alcorn called Heaven. I know we won't have all of the answers to so many questions about heaven that plague our minds...like if we will be joined together with our earthly families in heaven, and silly things like if we'll eat and such... But I know that I have a renewed sense of longing to live my life in a way that is pleasing to my Savior, so that when I meet Him in eternity he will look at me and say, "Well done my daughter, you have been a good and faithful servant."
Party hard up there today little man!!!!! :)
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I can't imagine Robyn how hard this is on you and your family. I am still praying for you!
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